This Day...

Today is 31st December 2010

I still do not want to go back to hostel...
I do not want to go back to hostel....

You know...
When I think about...
I will not sleep on my bed anymore...
I will not bath in my favorite bathroom anymore...
Mama will not call me to get out of bed every morning anymore...
Mama will not call me up to breakfast, lunch, tea-time or dinner anymore...
Or anything like that...

I'm getting afraid...
SO afraid...
I do not know why...
But...
There is some feeling...
An uneasy feeling...

I feel like crying...
I want to cry...
And tell somebody...
Or everyone about my feeling...
I want to cry...
And let everyone know my feeling...

I want my Papa and Mama to know my feeling...
But...
I'm such a wimp...
Scared to tell people...
Scared to do something...
What a JERK am I....

Please...
Don't say...
That other people can do it... why not you???
I'm not that people...!
I'm different!!
It's such a sad thing...
I do not want to go back there...

WAAAA....

Can I have somebody to cry on the shoulder for??

Tasketene... Onegaishimas!!!!